Tuesday, March 31, 2009

感覺


有些感覺似乎很虛無飄渺
坐在這裡想把它記錄下來
卻發現抓不到一絲絲思緒

感到感覺一點一點地消逝
莫名之間有點窒息與不安
突然有點恐懼直到有一天
會連絲絲感覺也表達不出

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

說不出的甜蜜

阿愷的部落看到一個很sweet的短片

愛情中最甜的時刻就是如此
看了都會被感染到溢出來的甜蜜



我也要傳紙條 XD


ps:可以把下面的歌関掉先,不好意思。

Monday, March 23, 2009

愛與背叛〈續〉

〈續〉

上一篇看了不同人的見解
不知道如何去回應
卻有感而發寫了這一篇

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我不知道自己的定義在那裏了?
以前我會很鐵定地說《不能並存》
但現在卻被很多觀點左右了想法
最重要的是自己又能做到多好呢?

有時經歷了很多,覺得張小嫻的問題也不是沒道理
《當我們了解人性,也就能夠原諒一切的軟弱,甚至是背叛,是這樣嗎?》
《是不是既然我們已經看到了人生的千瘡百孔,也就無所謂了?》
這兩句道破了一切無奈

先撇開肉體上的背叛不談
如果爲了一個更愛的人而離開現任
那是背叛?還是忠誠于自己的感覺?

背叛,可以當作是一個考驗
真情有時需要殘酷的考驗
如果有美麗的童話故事誰不要?
但感情不能只是用《對》和《錯》來衡量
而是需要《值不值得》來衡量

如果值得
哪怕它曾經是多麽的千瘡百孔
如果不值得
就算康莊大道也不願走不下去

Saturday, March 21, 2009

心有餘悸

原來這個詞是這麽樣的感覺

一個令人很恐懼的回憶
映射着自己不堪的過去

就算那麽輕輕地被提起
手腳也發冷得顫抖起來

有些東西會造成一世的陰影

Friday, March 20, 2009

愛與背叛

背叛和愛是否可以並存?
我們為何可以背叛所愛的人?卻又始終愛他?

如果有足夠的愛,我們是否可以原諒背叛過我們的戀人?
曾經互相背叛的兩個人,是否還是可以一起終老?

我們是不是通過背叛才能夠明白自己愛的是誰?
抑或,是那份深情摯愛縱容了我們的背叛?
當我們了解人性,也就能夠原諒一切的軟弱,甚至是背叛,是這樣嗎?

我們背叛了彼此,或者被背叛了,為什麼還是要相愛呢?
是不是我們終究離不開對方?
是不是既然我們已經看到了人生的千瘡百孔,也就無所謂了?

張小嫻就是那麽懂得把話説進人家的心坎裏。

朋友問我,你可以接受爱人背叛你,然后再告诉你,他最爱的是你?
我認爲背叛和重蹈覆轍不同,我可以接受背叛,卻不可以接受重蹈覆轍的背叛。那問題已不再是背叛那麽簡單了,而是完全漠視對方的感受。

朋友再問,一个你爱他,他却不停背叛你的人呢?
我還是愛着他吧?但會直到我對他的愛被完全濫用完爲止。

朋友說,那我会要一个我不是很爱,但却不会背叛我的人。
那種感覺不同的,因爲就算他背叛你,你也不在乎的。一個你不什麽在乎的人,他做什麽你也不會很介意。或許你還會希望他做錯,你才不會那麽内疚你的不那麽愛他。看你要找個怎樣的人罷了吧?

朋友再説,可是一个大起大落的爱情,背叛不断的男人,没有人会想要嘛!
那等到了自己的底綫后就決心離開吧。


究竟愛與背叛是否可以並存?

Monday, March 16, 2009

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我的心中住着一顆小太陽,它能把我的雨水帶走,還我溫煦的光芒。

Friday, March 13, 2009

情迷巴塞羅那



戯裏的她們各自懷了不同的一顆心

一顆為理想而奮鬥
一顆卻因現實包袱卻步

一顆期待花火燃燒
一顆卻寧願虛心的安穩

一顆尋覓因愛而婚
一顆卻因婚姻斷送愛情

一顆雀躍走出框框
一顆卻恐懼改變而不安

戯外的我卻同時懷着這兩顆不同的心

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

彩虹


那天看到的天空有點灰藍色
加了一層微黃的彩雲在低端
還有一道一百八十度的彩虹
彩虹底下有一個思念你的人

Monday, March 9, 2009

雲朵

突然又想念你了
思緒又被搞亂了
壓抑又被瓦解了

如果也可以
我想成爲天空飄浮的雲朵
伴在你身邊

Saturday, March 7, 2009

標題已顯示我很悶
不是沒事做而是沒心情做
所以……

Date and Day Today: 某年的某一天
Time Started: 某一時某一分
Time Ended : 他媽的久(⊙_⊙;)

[1] Taking it or Leaving it?
啊?做着啊 ( ̄. ̄)

[2] "I am forbidden…
朋友不准我扮可愛 ╮(╯▽╰)╭

[3] "I would love to have...
身邊的人都幸福。

[4] Are you a Bitch?
哈哈,你認爲呢?

[5] Are you talkative?
只能說不同的人遇見我有不同的遭遇

[6] Black or White?
白白白白白!

[7] Club or Pub/Bars?
Pub或者Bistro之類的。

[8] Desktop or Laptop?
手提電腦。

[9] Did you answer all the questions like you were supposed to?
是的 os:可以不要連續問那麽無聊的問題嗎? (╯-_-)╯╧╧

[10] Do those who you love return their love?
還好吧,可能自己也不是很好。

[11] Do you hate someone?
恨人很累。

[12] Do you have a car?
腳車也沒有 (╯‵□′)╯︵┴─┴

[13] Do you have a pet?
暫時沒有,以後一定要有。

[14] Do you know anyone who hates you?
如果世界上有一半的人喜歡自己就該感恩了,看化吧~

[15] Do you like to dance?
脫衣舞算嗎?o( ̄▽ ̄///)

[16] Do you like to sing?
不好意思唱 (~o ̄▽ ̄)~o

[17] Do you love someone?
當然有啦,笨蛋!

[18] Do you think love is fair?
要求公平只是自找煩惱。

[19] Do you think the TEN victims whom you are going to tag will answer these questions?
哈哈,不知道?

[20] Do you think these questions are personal?
不會,因爲我會躲問題 o( ̄▽ ̄///)

[21] Do you think those you love know that you love them?
我多數都會告訴的,只有少數人選擇不說 ╮(〒﹏〒)╭

[22] Ever been on a last minute vacation?
到隔壁街買東西 XD

[23] Ever been told that you are sexy?
有!我咯! =______=|||

[24] Ever loved someone so badly it broke your heart?
愛那麽深,痛就那麽深。

[25] Genuine or Fake?
我不說,你哪知道是真的假的?我說的,你又相信是真的假的?

[26] Get the closest magazine, go to page 36 and write the 3rd line down.
Play Boy。只是照片 XD
甲:開玩笑的。
乙:不好笑 (╯‵□′)╯︵┴─┴

[27] Hater or Lover?
當然是lover啦。I Need Love Love Love (~o ̄▽ ̄)~o

[28] Have you been mentioned in anyone's BLOG before? Was it good or bad? Why?
Umm……有啦,就寫我還不差啦,因爲我真的不差啊! o( ̄▽ ̄///)

[29] Have you ever left someone for another person?
有(⊙_⊙;)

[30] Have you ever two-timed?
自己問我的伴侶 ╮(╯▽╰)╭

[31] Have you tried bungee jumping? What do you think of it?
打死我都不會,除非是跳樓和它選一個。

[32] How long is/was your longest relationship? What do/did you think of him/her? Do you think she loves/loved you?
三年多,很不錯的情人啦,敢不愛我?(╯‵□′)╯︵┴─┴

[33] In your LAST FIVE posts of your BLOG, who were the people mentioned?
1- 我的想法 。
2- 又是我 ╮(╯▽╰)╭
3- 親愛的媽媽。
4- 好像也是我的感覺 ( ̄. ̄)
5- 一個我喜歡的人。

[34] Introvert or Extrovert?
還是那句,不同的人會看見不同的我。

[35] Is there something you're not wearing?
女人内衣 (⊙_⊙;)

[36] Is your BLOG a one-column, two-column or three-column? Or more?
自己不會看啊? =______=|||

[37] Name 1 [ONE] Holiday Spot.
臺灣。

[38] Name 2 [TWO] Possessions.
1: K810i SE電話。
2. Swatch手錶。

[39] Name 3 [THREE] Guys and his relationship with you
1: 廖XX (爸爸)
2: 廖XX (哥哥)
3: 廖XX (弟弟)
吹啊? o( ̄▽ ̄///)

[40] Name 4 [FOUR] Apparels you feel comfortable in.
1: 手錶。
2: T恤。
3: 牛仔褲。
4: 鴨舌帽。

[41] Name 5 [FIVE] Girls and her relationship with you
1: 胡XX(媽媽)
2: 胡來 (大姐)
3: 胡亂 (二姐)
4: 胡説 (二妹)
5: 胡搞 (小妹)
真的是胡來、胡亂、胡説、胡搞的,因爲我沒有姐姐和妹妹 (~o ̄▽ ̄)~o

[42] Name 6 [SIX] from your Wish-List
1: 相同頻率的情人。
2: 一份好的工作。
3: 旅遊。
4: 車子。
5: 屋子。
6: 黃金獵犬。

[43] Name 7 [SEVEN] thing in front of you
1: 笨蛋,當然是電腦啦!
2: 手機,你以爲我會講滑鼠叻,那就錯了 o( ̄▽ ̄///)
3: 滑鼠 〒▽〒
4: 牆壁 ( ̄. ̄)
5: 剛好爬過的壁虎 ( ̄. ̄)
6: Umm……好像沒有了。
7. 眼鏡!我突然看到我帶的眼鏡 ╮(╯▽╰)╭

[44] Name 8 [EIGHT] characters that best describe your personality
1: 無聊 (解釋:沒得解釋)
2: 冷笑話 (解釋:不熱的笑話)
3: 開朗 (解釋:不是不開朗)
4: 細心 (解釋:不要以爲我看不見)
5: 敏感 (解釋:很癢啊!)
6: 外冷内熱 (解釋:炸冰淇淋的反義詞)
7: 愛心 (解釋:不虐待小動物不代表不虐待人類 XD)
8: 同理心 (解釋:你亂花錢我心痛)

[45] Name 9 [NINE] words you say the most.
1: 奶奶的。
2: 屁股啦你。
3: 過分。
4: 等下要吃什麽?
5: 神經的。
6: 媽的。
7: 吃大便啦。
8: Thank You。
9: 不好意思。

[46] Name 10 [TEN] parts of your inheritance in characteristics, appearances and enthusiasms. Is it Dad's or Mum's?
1. 路痴 (╯-_-)╯╧╧(媽媽)
2. 内雙眼皮 (媽媽雙,爸爸單)
3. 愛情觀 (媽媽)
4. 眼袋 (爸爸和媽媽)
5: [有時]思想簡單 (媽媽)
6: 感性 (媽媽)
7: 瘦 (之前的爸爸 ( ̄▽ ̄) )
8: 有志氣 (爸爸)
9: 可愛o( ̄▽ ̄///) (媽媽)
10: 帥!(~o ̄▽ ̄)~o (爸爸)

[47] Should you be a multimillionaire, what's the FIRST thing you'd buy?
為家人買些東西。

[48] Sony Ericsson or Nokia?
Sony of course!

[49] Tell us something about you we don't already know.
我其實……其實我……其實……我是男的 ( ̄▽ ̄)

[50] The ONE thing you would change from your past.
過去得到的經驗遠比改變任何事情重要,不然就沒有今天的我。

[51] Was the word PINK added to the LAST TEN answers?
你有看到嗎?

[52] What are the titles of your LAST TEN posts?
自己看啦,我懶惰寫了 o( ̄▽ ̄///)

[53] What are you NOT?
完美,完美只是因爲不夠了解。

[54] What are you thankful for?
現在的所有一切,家人,朋友,情人。

[55] What are you wearing?
内褲,牛仔褲

[56] What do you fear most?
昆蟲! (⊙_⊙;)

[57] What do you hate about yourself?
衰心軟,耳朵軟。

[58] What do you hear apart from the computer noise?
王菲 《矜持》

[59] What do you love about yourself?
全部,哈哈 o( ̄▽ ̄///)

[60] What do you think of this questionnaire?
奶奶醬長!! (╯‵□′)╯︵┴─┴

[61] What do you usually do from Mondays to Sundays?
Monday: 做你也做的事。
Tuesday: 同上
Wednesday: 又同上
Thursday: 再同上,突然覺得生活很無趣 ( ̄. ̄)
Friday: 還是同上 ╮(〒﹏〒)╭
Saturday: 不想重復了! (╯-_-)╯╧╧
Sunday: (╯‵□′)╯︵ ╧╧

[62] What irritates you?
懷疑,背叛,誣賴,人身攻擊。

[63] What is on the walls of the room you're in?
剛才爬過的壁虎。

[64] What is stressing you now?
沒有吧?我很少壓力的 ( ̄▽ ̄)

[65] What is your bad habit?
Last minute ╮(╯▽╰)╭

[66] What is your BLOG'S URL and Name? Why did you choose that particular name?
URL: http://ziyuan86.blogspot.com (沒有的話你怎麽進來?=______=|||)
Name: 子源
Why?: 我的名字咯 ( ̄. ̄)


[67] What is your current mood?
平靜的,沒特別。

[68] What is your favourite colour?
還好,不挑。

[69] What is your favourite game?
Dota,呵呵。

[70] What is your favourite past-time?
寫或看部落格。

[71] What is your favourite song?
很多,多屬於抒情的。

[72] What is your favourite store?
沒什麽特別喜歡。

[73] What is your hair colour?
有一點點brown。自然的還是曬壞了?

[74] What makes you smile?
任何事。

[75] What scares you?
明明和56題類似。誰做這問題的出去罰站!(╯-_-)╯╧╧

[76] What shuts you off?
爭論,戰亂之類的東西。

[77] What was the last thing you did?
沖涼。

[78] What was the last thing you said last night before going to bed?
我忘咯 ( ̄▽ ̄)

[79] What was the last thing you watched on TV?
Alien and predator之類的。忘了戯名!

[80] What was your dream last night?
睡得很酣甜 (~o ̄▽ ̄)~o

[81] What widgets/gadgets do you have on your sidebar(s)?
又再問廢話了,自己看。

[82] What would you name your daughter?
醬快想? ( ̄. ̄)

[83] What would you name your son?
還不知道啦! ╮( ̄. ̄)╭

[84] What would be the version of your love quote?
相愛,坦白和忠誠。

[85] When was the last time you cried and why?
看戯的時候咯,真正為一個人哭的時候好像很久了,忘了。

[86] When was the last time you laughed and why?
我隨時都會亂笑的,我也忘了爲什麽或幾時笑了。

[87] When you were out having fun the last time, what did you do?
忘了,談天講冷笑話之類的?

[88] Where did you grow up?
檳城。

[89] Where do you want to be in 6 years time?
在我愛的家人和情人和好朋友的身邊就好,地點不重要。

[90] Where is your cell phone?
現在在我旁邊了,剛才聼電話一下。

[91] Where is your significant other?
在我的心中 (~o ̄▽ ̄)~o

[92] Where were you last night?
和朋友到pelita喝茶。

[93] Who are the people you mentioned in the LAST TWENTY answers? Who is he/she to you?My family -Dad Mum Sis and everybody else.
寫到blur了,還叫我看回之前的答案,玩嘢啊?(╯‵□′)╯︵┴─┴

[94] Who do you usually go out with?
好朋友。

[95] Who was the last person you saw? What did he or she say?
爸爸,媽媽。他們說:源,吃飯咯~

[96] Who was the last person you spoke to online? What were you and him/her chatting?
Clover。問功課咯。

[97] Why are TEN victims, your TEN victims?
我不害人的,誰悶的話也可以試試看做,包你後悔 o( ̄▽ ̄///)

[98] Why are you doing this questionnaire?
都說很悶咯。悶~悶~悶~ (〒﹏〒)

[99] Why do you think the person reading this right now, read all the way to number NINETY NINE?
因爲八卦?很悶?還是很愛我?o( ̄▽ ̄///)

[100] AND THE AWARD GOES TO:
長氣!都說我不害人的咯 (╯-_-)╯╧╧

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

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人必須改變之前的想法,才能讓命運不再重蹈覆轍。

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

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我發現到煩惱的根源是要求。放開了,我原來可以很輕。

Monday, March 2, 2009

遺傳

這一點我不能否認
我從我媽媽那邊遺傳了很多因子
其中影響得我最深遠的是

路痴

我哥哥認路是絕頂的
走過一次的路都會過目不忘
爸爸說我很偉大
把媽媽幾十年偉大的遺傳全都吸收了
所以我弟弟認路也沒問題 Orz

天啊,爲什麽就只有我
錯,還有我媽媽相依爲命?